Up To (Great) Grandma’s House We Go

This past Friday we went on a short road trip up to my grandmothers home with Lily and my mother. We had four generations all together at once!

Lily was surprisingly good on the way up, she has been starting to cut a tooth so she has been fussy for a little while know but she ended up falling asleep before we were fully out of the city! She slept until the car stopped in my grandmothers driveway so I was able to sit down and just listen to some music on my mp3 player without distraction.

While we were there my grandmother actually brought out toys that I played with as a kid, and even a barbie doll that my aunts played with when they were children! Lily loved eating the barbies feet. Throughout the day we baby proofed in sections, Lily would find the photo frames on low bookshelf’s and we would take those, then candles, and little candy bowls, it was actually like a game, how quick could Lily find something she shouldn’t have?

Showing off her new hat!

Showing off her new hat!

We shortly decided to sit out on the front deck and layed out a quilt and some toys for Lily, we sat there for awhile and then moved to my Grandmothers front garden were Lily loved looking at the flowers and trying to eat the grass, and she loved the gnomes!

We then sat down to some amazing barbecued burgers and salad with radishes and apples in it and Lily sat eating her Gerber puffs and then “chewing” on a celery stick since she doesn’t have teeth fully yet.

It was nice to see my grandmother and Lily had so much fun playing with new toys and seeing her great grandmother. She tuckered herself out and slept most of the ride home.


London Baby Expo Day

Yesterday was finally the day I was able to visit the London Baby Expo. I have been looking forward to this day all month and could barely sleep the night before because I was that excited.

Finally The Baby Expo Is Open!

Finally The Baby Expo Is Open!

Lily,my mother, sister, my sisters husband and myself all went together to the expo. We were lucky to be one of the first 150 inside so we were able to get a freebie bag, which I loved! pamphlets, freebie pens, candy, even some coupons for some of the booths (like the photography booths as example.) We walked around for a few hours, Lily loved looking at all the colors of things, and smiled and “talked” to some of the exhibitors and just to herself. She did not stay in the stroller the whole time, Lily likes to be able to see everything, which she couldn’t look behind in the stroller so for the last part of the walk through she was held and she was quite happy to be out of the stroller! There was a petting zoo and at first Lily wasn’t very interested, but when we were walking away one of the people working with the petting zoo was carrying a baby kangaroo and Lily stared at it for awhile and smiled.

We picked up some clothes from the Mom to Mom sales (it’s like indoor garage sales but only for babies/children’s clothes and toys) and we found a few gently used toys that we picked up also. The last few times we have been we picked up spices from a stand called Epicure, this time we picked up Garlic aioli, and we picked up a mix for pumpkin cheesecake that I’m ecstatic to try.

When we were finished and we were heading back to the car we saw that another part of the fair district (where the expo was) had a Campuscrew liquidation sale! Amazing prizes! I mean $5 shirts, $17 sweaters, amazing sales, I ended up picking up a baggy tank top, a off the shoulder t-shirt, and finally found a tank top that is long enough to fit my long torso!

Baby's Sweet Potato Pie

Baby’s Sweet Potato Pie

We then stopped into Walmart to pick up Lily some more baby food (I really have to take out my baby bullet soon and begin to use it!) and while there we found a new food that I wanted to try for Lily, it’s Baby Gourmet brand and it’s one of those squeeze pouches, there was a few that I wanted to try but I gave the deciding vote to my mother and she chose the Baby’s Sweet Potato Pie. I picked up another t-shirt and short pajama’s for Lily since it is getting very hot here, and her nursery in our apartment is sweltering at nighttime.

Once we returned home Lily tried Cheerios for the first time and she loved them! It was so sweet to see Lily picking them up and eating them, she had a cute moment when she started babbling and a full cheerio was stuck to her bottom lip! Also when we returned home we tried the new food flavor…someone had two bites and then refused to eat it, she had a few more bites after we fed her some sweet potatoes though. We did not realize there was cinnamon in the puree (I know I should have looked) and I don’t think Lily likes to many odd flavors. She really only eats peas, sweet potatoes and squash right know and I was hoping to get different fruits and vegetables into her but the cinnamon hindered this I think.

Lily's First Bites Of Cheerios!

Lily’s First Bites Of Cheerios!

Yesterday was an amazing day and I’m very proud of my daughter and how good she was today, and how much she babbled, and how little she squawked today!

Little Hands Grasp Dandelions

A dandelion, when we are all children we believe they are beautiful flowers, you know the one’s that adults don’t get angry about us picking. But once you get older you realize there just weeds, there much hated by many gardeners, and home owners, and means hours of picking out these weeds, or just letting them overtake your lawn.

Yesterday though I saw dandelions through my daughters eyes. Lily, Myself, grandma and grampa, and aunt Sarah all gathered together outside watching Lily play in the grass and dandelions for the first time.

Lily checking out the dandelions.

Lily checking out the dandelions.

She loved it, she was excited from the beginning and loved ripping out the dandelions, she only tried eating a few of them, which is to be expected from a baby.

I loved watching my daughter become just so fascinated, my daughter is one that loves the camera, that crawls towards it and gives big smiles, but yesterday she only did that for a few photos, she was so curious and so amused by the dandelions. I was captivated by her, she had her serious thinking expression on, and she wasn’t just all excited about the grass and dandelions she wanted to feel them and understand them it seemed like.

She didn’t do much crawling, she didn’t like the feel of it on her knees, and because the grass hadn’t been mowed in a little while the grass kept hitting her in the face which she did not like.

It is a great experience to see my daughter outside though, I love watching her interact with nature and seeing all these new, beautiful things and I love being able to watch her as she tries to figure things out and lets her curiosity out.

My First Mothers Day

It was the first Mothers day that I woke up, and I was actually being celebrated, I was along with all the other mothers around the world were being praised for all they do their daily lives to remind there children they are loved, safe, and cared for. It is the greatest experience and a rite of passage for a new mother.

It’s not the gifts or the praise, of course Lily is to small to understand what the day is for, or make any noise that could even be mistaken for “Thank you” but it was an amazing day all the same. I spent the day with my daughter imagining all the years to come, the pasta artwork, the finger paintings, the flowers picked from a garden that one was not suppose to pick. I can not wait for the long cuddles and the proud look upon her face when she hands me something homemade to say happy mothers day.

On mothers day I spent most of the day at our apartment with Lily, after Michael gave me his gift for me, a bouquet of roses. I spent the day playing with Lily, reading books, and having her play and be amazed by the light from her kid flashlight. Someone spent the day a little cranky though since she chose not to have a morning or early afternoon nap, so that was a little bump in the road.

Later that evening around supper time my father picked us up and we went back to my parents home, where we were surprised that my sister and her husband were visiting, they loving playing with Lily on the ground and she loves her aunt and uncle so that was sweet to watch, we had a great dinner then we all opened presents. My sister as of yet is not a mother (cross my fingers) but I gave her a card to let her know that when she is she will be the greatest mother in the world, she also was given an “auntie” coffee mug. My mother was given her flowers, chocolate bar and other gifts also.

My mothers flowers and favorite chocolate bar gift.

My mothers flowers and favorite chocolate bar gift.

I was amazed though at all the gifts that were given to me. I was not expecting much at all a nice gift, more flowers maybe, but I was pleasantly surprised. I was given gifts from my sister, also , “gifts from Lily” my mother says, and a gift from my parents.

My gifts for Mothers Day excluding my roses.

My gifts for Mothers Day excluding my roses.

From my sister I was given a book to read to my daughter (The Love In My Heart) and barbecue sauce which I fell in love with when we had it at her Easter Sunday supper. Gifts my mother says “Lily whispered into my ear to get these for you” where another book to read to Lily (I Love You Mommy), my first mom tea/coffee mug (and yes there is coffee in it during this photo) and the picture frame and ink to take Lily’s foot or hand prints (we did her footprint last night) and then from my mother and father I was given a new Chicken Soup For The Soul book, which I love there books so I can not wait to start reading it.

I know mothers day is not about the gifts, it’s about loving your children and spending time with your family, and it’s about realizing yourself how much you really do for your family and letting others maybe take over a few things that day and giving yourself some relaxation, even if it’s only a few minutes. I do appreciate the gifts though, I have not bought myself anything unless it’s much needed since months before Lily was born and it was nice to get things that I didn’t fully need, but wanted.

I want to say thank you to my own mother for making my first Mothers day amazing, I want to thank my sister and father and brother in law also, and Michael and I would like to thank all the other mothers out there, and I hope you also had an amazing Mothers Day.

Little Moments #2

This past weekend, with my parents having Lily honestly felt so long, I spent every waking moment wanting her to come home, but knowing she needed and obviously wanted time with Grandma and Grandpa. I needed to do so much housework which felt so overwhelming since I hadn’t been able to clean up the past week. I also spent the whole weekend worrying about the Dr’s appointment I had today, I hadn’t seen my psychiatrist since April so there was a lot to talk about which also made me feel overwhelmed.

Of course whenever I have a bad weekend or bad couple of days I try to take time out and remember the good things and the small positive that have happened the last few days/week. I haven’t been posting my little moments recently, so I felt it was due time to post some of my little moments.


Lily laughing with Kier!

While missing Lily this weekend I decided to check my camera like I do every time she’s away just so that I can look at her beautiful face in the photos (and the few videos I have of her smiling and “talking” makes it even more joyful) But when I was going through the photo’s I found a few Michael took while I was sleeping this past week, some of he cutest photos! One was of Lily sticking out her tongue which I don’t know how he got to the camera in time but  automatically seeing the photo I burst out laughing until I cried tears of joy because it was just to cute. Another photo though melted my heart, a photo of Lily with Kier, I haven’t been able to get Kier to sit still next to Lily since he’s still weirded out with her “talking” and she’s been grabbing things that come close to her hands recently so pulling his fur is a common issue. But Michael has the magic and was able to finally get a photo.


Still seeing birds as it is practically a blizzard out excited me, but also worried me on Saturday. The birds were hiding in the balcony’s of alot of the apartments trying to keep out of the snow, and out of the gusts of wind. Michael and I decided to feed the bird with some bread worried they hadn’t eaten in awhile since it had been snowing since the night before. I was able to take this shot of the beautiful bird just in time because it flew away after eating a little bit later. I havn’t seen any birds since Saturday so I’m hoping there on there way to a warmer area.

What do you think? Should I go for a short haircut?

What do you think? Should I go for a short haircut?

After going through some of the photo’s I still have from high school (I deleted a lot of photo’s due to them being a trigger so I have about a year of my teenage years with no photos) I actually kept paying attention to the fact that I use to have shorter hair (versus my hair know that reaches around my belly button) and I actually liked the way I looked with shorter hair. I feel like I look more pretty and I seem to remember feeling more confident with shorter hair (maybe because with shorter hair I am unable to hide behind my hair which I honestly sometimes due with this longer hair) so I decided to do some pinning back of my hair to see what I would look like with short hair know, and if I would like to get my hair cut, I took a photo and Michael says I looked really great with short hair (He’s only seen me with medium to long hair) and we decided to put aside some money in the new year so that I’m able to get my hair cut and styled in the New Year.


Of course I can’t forget the simple pleasure of just watching the snow softly drift to the ground, The simple pleasure of looking out in the morning to plenty of snow filling the yards and all over the beautiful tree’s. As much as I love everything about autumn, the smells, the colorful leaves, all the pumpkin flavored foods and scents, I also love to watch snow falling, I think its one of the most beautiful things in nature.

Last but not least, today I was finally able to hang up some photos I have of Lily and us as a family all together, the apartment definitely feels so much more “homey” know that we have photo’s up. I do need more picture frames though so I’m hoping to get some for Christmas or in the new year through boxing day sales. I’m dreaming of a full wall of photos!

So looking over all the positives this past weekend I feel a little bit better, less overwhelmed and I feel more secure in my home, and more secure with who I am. I hope you are able to find the Little Moments in your days and weeks.


Happy Birthday Michael!

Happy birthday to the man I love so dearly!

I am so excited to spend the day making this birthday for Michael so amazing, I sadly was unable to spend his last birthday with him and I will be making sure this birthday is the most amazing he’s had in years.

I’m making him his favorite recipe of mine, my personal recipe for my secret honey mustard chicken pita’s that he asks me to make almost weekly, He hasn’t had them in awhile so i’m glad to give him his favorite.

For dessert Michael is true to his heart and goes against the norm of having a birthday cake, he’s choosing something that proves he’s perfect for me and my love of pumpkin pie, yes after asking Michael what type of cake he wishes to have for his birthday he turned to me and told me “nope I want a pumpkin pie” so be it I will gladly have a pumpkin pie, candles would fit perfectly in that pie!

I’m making him a birthday banner when he sleeps today a “Happy Birthday Daddy” banner to help bring Lily into the birthday, of course she wishes her father an amazing birthday and she wants to let Daddy know it.

I’m so excited to give Michael his presents, I feel great about the presents I bought for him, and especially the card I found for him, is it not amazing when you find a card that says everything you wish to say, and then once you sit down to sign that card you are able to think of even more amazing things to add to the beautiful words already printed in the card?

So, happy birthday my soulmate, I love you so and wish you a great and amazing birthday, and another great year of life filled with more joy, more smiles, more positivity, and more laughter.

Remembering The Little Moments

Even though I have been struggling this past week, dealing with stress, asking for help instead of doing everything myself, and my eating disorder I have been able to keep positive at moments because I am looking towards the little moments that are going on daily that remind me that the simple things in life add up to a good day, and a happy life.

Late at night on Wednesday Michael definitely made me remember to smile, as a joke he decided to have me shut my eyes and tilt my head back while I was in the kitchen,and even though I was skeptical, I trusted him and new it at least had something to do with food…and that’s when he squirted whipped cream all over my face and hair! Well I wasn’t going to just accept that and I started pulling the whip cream out of my hair and rubbing it onto his head. We ran around the apartment, dripping whip cream onto the carpet, all over the tiled floors, I mean everywhere! It was fun just acting like a kid again and doing it with my love made it even more fun!

Big Peach and Baby Photobomb!

Big Peach and Baby Photobomb!

If you know me you would understand how much I love peaches, I mean I don’t just like the taste of fresh peaches, I love juice, I add it to barbecue sauce for a marinade, I love peach tea, I love the scent, I even love the look of peaches! (I’ve been attempting to sketch a peach perfectly so that I’m ready to paint one soon) and this past week I was so excited because I found the BIGGEST peach I have ever seen.  I was so excited and couldn’t wait for breakfast the next day to eat it, and when I bit into it oh goodness it was so juicy and so sweet! Best fruit purchase of the summer!

Of Course I can’t overlook the cute and sweet things Kier (our cat) does, and how he always makes me smile some way during the day because of how random he is. This past week I was able to capture a photo of Michael and Kier talking (Michael talking and Kier meowing in return) but the photo does not do the moment justice. Kier was sitting on the top of the chair and while talking to Michael he kept moving around so that he could rub his head on Michael and it was sweet because he kept slipping (he was not hurt, he didn’t fall no worries) it was the perfect thing to watch just before I got ready for bed.

Michael And Kier

Michael And Kier

This past week Michael woke me up unexpectedly, I hadn’t set my alarm due to not having anything planned for the day, so him waking me up earlier then I planned was surprising.  What was more surprising was that Michael pulled me out of bed and brought me into the living room…where a love song was playing full blast and he grabbed my hand and we slow danced. It was so unexpected, and the best wake up call I have ever had.

So all in all I must remember that even though I have been struggling there are things in my everyday life that happen to remind me that my life is filled with simple pleasures, filled with love and if I just take a deep breath I will remember my life is a great life.