London Baby Expo Day

Yesterday was finally the day I was able to visit the London Baby Expo. I have been looking forward to this day all month and could barely sleep the night before because I was that excited.

Finally The Baby Expo Is Open!

Finally The Baby Expo Is Open!

Lily,my mother, sister, my sisters husband and myself all went together to the expo. We were lucky to be one of the first 150 inside so we were able to get a freebie bag, which I loved! pamphlets, freebie pens, candy, even some coupons for some of the booths (like the photography booths as example.) We walked around for a few hours, Lily loved looking at all the colors of things, and smiled and “talked” to some of the exhibitors and just to herself. She did not stay in the stroller the whole time, Lily likes to be able to see everything, which she couldn’t look behind in the stroller so for the last part of the walk through she was held and she was quite happy to be out of the stroller! There was a petting zoo and at first Lily wasn’t very interested, but when we were walking away one of the people working with the petting zoo was carrying a baby kangaroo and Lily stared at it for awhile and smiled.

We picked up some clothes from the Mom to Mom sales (it’s like indoor garage sales but only for babies/children’s clothes and toys) and we found a few gently used toys that we picked up also. The last few times we have been we picked up spices from a stand called Epicure, this time we picked up Garlic aioli, and we picked up a mix for pumpkin cheesecake that I’m ecstatic to try.

When we were finished and we were heading back to the car we saw that another part of the fair district (where the expo was) had a Campuscrew liquidation sale! Amazing prizes! I mean $5 shirts, $17 sweaters, amazing sales, I ended up picking up a baggy tank top, a off the shoulder t-shirt, and finally found a tank top that is long enough to fit my long torso!

Baby's Sweet Potato Pie

Baby’s Sweet Potato Pie

We then stopped into Walmart to pick up Lily some more baby food (I really have to take out my baby bullet soon and begin to use it!) and while there we found a new food that I wanted to try for Lily, it’s Baby Gourmet brand and it’s one of those squeeze pouches, there was a few that I wanted to try but I gave the deciding vote to my mother and she chose the Baby’s Sweet Potato Pie. I picked up another t-shirt and short pajama’s for Lily since it is getting very hot here, and her nursery in our apartment is sweltering at nighttime.

Once we returned home Lily tried Cheerios for the first time and she loved them! It was so sweet to see Lily picking them up and eating them, she had a cute moment when she started babbling and a full cheerio was stuck to her bottom lip! Also when we returned home we tried the new food flavor…someone had two bites and then refused to eat it, she had a few more bites after we fed her some sweet potatoes though. We did not realize there was cinnamon in the puree (I know I should have looked) and I don’t think Lily likes to many odd flavors. She really only eats peas, sweet potatoes and squash right know and I was hoping to get different fruits and vegetables into her but the cinnamon hindered this I think.

Lily's First Bites Of Cheerios!

Lily’s First Bites Of Cheerios!

Yesterday was an amazing day and I’m very proud of my daughter and how good she was today, and how much she babbled, and how little she squawked today!

Little Hands Grasp Dandelions

A dandelion, when we are all children we believe they are beautiful flowers, you know the one’s that adults don’t get angry about us picking. But once you get older you realize there just weeds, there much hated by many gardeners, and home owners, and means hours of picking out these weeds, or just letting them overtake your lawn.

Yesterday though I saw dandelions through my daughters eyes. Lily, Myself, grandma and grampa, and aunt Sarah all gathered together outside watching Lily play in the grass and dandelions for the first time.

Lily checking out the dandelions.

Lily checking out the dandelions.

She loved it, she was excited from the beginning and loved ripping out the dandelions, she only tried eating a few of them, which is to be expected from a baby.

I loved watching my daughter become just so fascinated, my daughter is one that loves the camera, that crawls towards it and gives big smiles, but yesterday she only did that for a few photos, she was so curious and so amused by the dandelions. I was captivated by her, she had her serious thinking expression on, and she wasn’t just all excited about the grass and dandelions she wanted to feel them and understand them it seemed like.

She didn’t do much crawling, she didn’t like the feel of it on her knees, and because the grass hadn’t been mowed in a little while the grass kept hitting her in the face which she did not like.

It is a great experience to see my daughter outside though, I love watching her interact with nature and seeing all these new, beautiful things and I love being able to watch her as she tries to figure things out and lets her curiosity out.

She’s Growing Older! 6 Months Old!

Six months ago exactly to the day my daughter, my little miracle was born. I can still remember the birth like it was just yesterday, and somehow it’s already been six months. Since becoming a mother I have realized how slow the moments feel like there going by, but in the long run it seems like the days and weeks are going by quicker then they ever have.

I’m so beyond proud of my daughter with these past six months, she’s accomplished so much and made her mother so proud. I’ve loved watching her try to turn over, again and again and then finally getting the hang of it while on the diaper changing table (we use our kitchen table as a diaper changing station) while trying to put her pajama’s on after her nightly bath. I’ve loved watching her go quite and shriek with glee when a musical toy is held up in front of her. I love watching her munch on a wooden baking spoon and become so happy with her “new toy” that shes enthralled in the spoon for hours.

Helping In The Kitchen!

Helping In The Kitchen!

This past week has shown me how much and how fast she has grown up. Finding not one but two teeth about to pop out of her gums, watching her be so close to crawling (she has the position and moving her knees down pat, she’s not sure what to do with her arms, and when she does think to move her arms sadly falls over due to her balance) I’m proud to have been able to watch as she feeds herself her Farley biscuit, or when she leans in for the spoon filled with her rice cereal.

I also am able to notice personality traits in my daughter, and see some things of myself in her, one thing i’m noticing that when she laughs she snorts, which I will be honest I also tend to do sometimes when I really get into laughing. We notice how inquisitive and curious my daughter is, she won’t sit still she must look and discover everything around her. My daughter also seems to be a daredevil, she loves to be thrown into the air, she loves us pretend “dropping” her (we keep our arms around her but quickly move our upper body forward until shes close to the ground) she squeals and gets the biggest widest smile on her face.

These six months have gone by quicker then I could ever have imagined. I’m amazed that in six months by beautiful baby will be a one year old. My miracle has helped me grow these past months just as much as she has grown these past few months. I’m proud of everything my daughter has been able to accomplish these past few months.

All I Want Are My Two Front Teeth!

Lily is an overachiever it seems and instead of pushing down one first tooth her body has decided, nope that won’t do and her two upper front teeth are coming out at the same time!

After months of dealing with random cries of pain that we have realized is due to teething, this past week I was finally able to take a good look at Lily’s mouth. I’ve been able to take a peek at her bottom gums, but when I would go to try and see the top of her mouth she would freak out and try to wiggle her way out of my arms or away from me. A few days ago though as I finished feeding her the nipple of the bottle pushed up her top lip and showed me not one, but two teeth white, outlined and so close to the bottom on her gums. There was a huge shock of excitement and I automatically called my mother letting her know I finally found the teeth!

Everything made sense, Lily was not going down to sleep alone and needed to sleep in bed next to my mother or me or she would not stay asleep, and these past few days Lily will not let me put her down for very long, she constantly wants to be held or snuggled. At first the constant contact was sweet, I must be honest it’s getting a little tough though, I’m unable to eat unless she’s sitting in my lap or else she’s crying uncontrollably, she’s not napping as much leading her to be a little cranky. Of course it’s understandable, I myself am having on and off pains of my wisdom teeth coming in, and I’ve experienced this process before and understand what is going on, while my daughter hasn’t experience it before and has no clue why it is happening.

Her teeth are not quite out yet but they are so close that I can imagine less then five days and at least one will be peaking through.

I’m proud of my daughter, she’s a trooper and I couldn’t imagine having two front teeth coming in at once for her first teeth. The fact that she can still be the bubbly, smiling daughter I know and love makes me a proud mother.

What are some tips or advice you have for a mother of a teething child? 

Her First Bites

One generation to the next, My daughter was able to have her first bites of solid food this past week, and she was able to have those “bites” in the same high chair I used as a young child. The older wooden high chair will work for a little while longer but we are looking for a newer version, that also has a bigger lip on the sides so my miss messy eater won’t be able to keep pushing her Farley biscuits off the side of the tray.

I am very thankful that my mother gladly helped me with Lily’s first bites, I’ve spent months worrying and stressing over her first foods and having my mother a veteran in baby feeding be by my side helped calm my nerves.

We got Lily all set up in the high chair, letting her play with a toy for a few minutes before we started feeding just so that she would be a little more comfortable in the seat, and we then fed her, at first Lily loved it, she was grabbing for the spoon, somewhat eating what was on the spoon, of course some didn’t make it into the mouth but all over her face. Then the third bite was when things started to get a little harder, she was not opening her mouth for the spoon, and eventually gave the cutest, but most disgusted look on her face. She stopped opening her mouth and wasn’t taking in any of the food. So we finally decided that was enough for the day.

Second Bite!

Second Bite!

At first we thought it was a different texture so that might be the reason, and we moved to watering the food down a little more and feeding it to her through a bottle, she drank it up quickly. Our idea is that the spoon was part of the problem, seeing as she loves the food when drank through a bottle.

Later on while my mother and I were cooking dinner (I’m visiting my parents for the week) we decided to put Lily back in the high chair and give her a Farley biscuit. I was amazed that this biscuit was the first thing she didn’t automatically put into her mouth…of course the thing you want her to put in her mouth and “chew” she doesn’t! After breaking the biscuit in half so it was easier for her to handle she went at it, she started “chewing” bits that fell off into her mouth and when she either dropped a piece in her lap or was all finished with her piece she would bang on the high chair table until we gave her another piece.

The mess was all over, crumbs on the floor, the whole table with crumb and wet biscuit, it was all up her hands and arms, crumbs on her pants, all over the bib, on her sleeves, on top of her nose and on her cheeks close to her ears somehow, and even after taking her bib off we found some underneath were the bib was!

I’m proud of my daughter, and this amazing new milestone, her first bites went better then I expected!

Teething Process Beginning

Watching your baby cry and knowing there isn’t any way to fully take away her pain is the most painful and saddest thing of being a parent and this past week I finally came face to face to this situation. In the past Lily has been fussy, but rocking her, burping her, or just tickling her could make her stop crying, but this cry is different, this is a shrill cry that really makes you hurt deep in your heart, the cry you know she’s crying because she’s in pain…and all you can do is give her a dose of medicine and rocking her to try and soothe her the best I can.

Since the day after our Christmas party Lily has been sucking on her fingers, blankets and anything she can get her hands on, Including my hair while it’s still wet from my shower; and when you try to move it out of her mouth she cries.(trying to clothe a baby with a blanket in her hand is a hard task, and trying to rock a child while she’s actually yanking your hair out is also hard)

Where we can’t feel any teeth yet, or see anything coming up in her mouth were pretty sure the teething process has begun, my mother says I began to teeth around the age Lily is know, and one of Michael’s sisters actually began to teeth at around 2 months so with that in mind were pretty sure she’s teething.

Honestly this past week has been hard, Lily is barely sleeping three hours from 9am until 9pm, and whenever she does fall asleep she’s waking up an hour or so in with a painful cry, where she needs to be held or she will not fall back asleep or stop crying.

I am proud of myself though, Just a month ago I would bawling my eyes out in the corner because I couldn’t deal with hearing my child crying, and I didn’t know what to do. But I’ve grown as a stronger mother and I understand sometimes she just needs to cry, and sometimes all I can do is hold her and sing to her. I’m trying my hardest, I’m giving her, her needs but right know the only thing that I could do more is to magically take her pain away, which sadly is not possible.

Why I Wish To Co-Sleep But Cant

This post can be controversial, where I would love to hear your opinions, I DO NOT wish to have negative judgment, I will not accept it, thank you. 

These days some people hear about co-sleeping and automatically think it’s some crazy hippie fad. Honestly though if you look back in history, or even look around the world it’s more the norm to co-sleep then it is to have your child in a crib. In some place’s it’s not normal to have a crib, it’s a luxury.

When I found out I was pregnant, I started doing research, what type of parenting style did I want to give my child? I learned about tiger parenting, and the most interesting in my books, attachment parenting. I’ll write later about some things about attachment parenting, but I wish to write about one aspect that most attachment parent’s follow, co-sleeping.

Co-sleeping is the practice of babies and young children sleeping in the same bed as there parents apposed to sleeping in there own room, or own crib.

I really wanted to try co-sleeping, I thought it was a great idea, I could be close to her so I wouldn’t worry about missing her cries, I could easily comfort her, I wouldn’t really wake her up if she had gotten to sleep and then I would have to get up and put her in her crib which could wake her up, and easiest? if she woke up at night for a feed I could easily lie down and breastfeed her to sleep.

But my dreams of co-sleeping was quickly crushed. I’m not a good sleeper. I move around a lot, I kick, I throw my elbows around, I wake up sometimes thrashing from nightmares of past abuse. I’ve woken up at times and in the night really hurt Michael because I kicked so hard. I’m not the greatest sleep partner honestly. Another reason was due to all my moving around our double sized bed is just not big enough at all, plenty of bickers between me and Michael are caused by one or the other being on the other persons “side”

Amazingly even after explaining my reasoning before on my Tumblr page I got two messages telling me I’m being rude and not a true “attachment parent” if I really cared about my daughter I would sleep with her and give her the comfort of her sleeping in the same bed with warmth from both her mother and father. At first I was so shocked, and a little angry about the message’s. I’m not sleeping in the same bed with my child because I DO care about her, I’ve hurt my boyfriend sleeping with him why would I take the chance and sleep in the same bed with my daughter and have the possibility of hurting her also? I give Lily plenty of comfort during the day and while she’s awake and give her comfort in other ways while she sleeps, I hold her as she sleeps at least an hour a day before I get up to clean up our apartment so she has a clean home. And yes I’m not a full “attachment parent” but I try to give as much as I can in that form of parenting style, I use a baby carrier as much as possible (I’m sorry but i’m not going to walk to a grocery store to buy $50 worth of groceries and try to carry her and carry the groceries myself) and I breastfeed as much as I possibly can without forcing myself through pain, or not giving her enough food (My supply has run lower at times)

So yes I dream of co-sleeping and following the way of attachment parenting but I’m a mother, I have to take care of my child, not conform to a strict way of parenting. I do my best and I choose that it is not safe for my child to sleep in MY bed, yes other’s are lucky enough to be able to co-sleep, but I’m not a mother that is lucky enough in that aspect, but I give my daughter more in return to make up for it.

Do you co-sleep? What are your opinions on co-sleeping?